Saturday, February 5, 2011

Making things more final...

Today brings us one step closer to ending a very hard chapter of our lives. As most of you know, Chris' mom passed away very unexpectedly on November 21, 2010, she was only 56 years old. She was also the only family he had left.

It's been a very rough last few months, not just emotionally but mentally and physically as well. There are soo many things to take care of when a loved one passes, things you never think of. Canceling credit cards, closing bank accounts, cleaning out the house....and that brings us to today. Today is the estate is when strangers enter her house and browse through her belongings taking them home with them where we'll never see them again. We're not allowed to be there, during the sale I mean, and now I truly understand why.

Last night we decided to make one last walk through of the house, just to make sure the items we wanted to keep were marked and get an idea of how the whole process works. But as we stood there, with all her things surrounding us, I was hit with an extreme sense of loss and sadness. This was the last time we would ever see these items, things that she loved and personally picked out, things that Chris had helped move through the different houses of his childhood. It just made things that  much more real...that she's really gone.

Don't get me wrong, I know they are just "things"...and we have spent the last month going through each room, picking out the items we wanted to keep. Knick knacks, pictures, some of the more personal pieces that Chris and the boys both wanted, and needed, to keep her close. But the thought hit me, of how hard this would be if they were my own mom's things, and this was the last time I got to see them, smell them, and touch them. It made my heart hurt that much more for him, of course, as a man, he holds it in. So I'm asking, for those few of you out there reading this, to just keep us in your prayers, to help us through this next step of closure, to remind us that you love us and that it's not the "things" that make that love real.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

I'm Back!!!

I'm completed addicted to Google Reader (for those of you who don't know what that is, you're missing out!) and so any spare time I have, which really means, any free time I can pretend I have, is spent reading about other people's lives, home remodeling projects, kids, etc. I'm following blogs that document every step their child makes, every poop their dog takes, and every gaseous sound their husband haves...well not really, but you get the idea. And as much fun as I'm having catching up on the lives of complete strangers, it's making me feel like a rather crappy mom/wife and blogger. There have been soo many things that have happened over the last year that I didn't document and now wish I had. So this is my re-attempt to blog regularly and hopefully a few of you will follow along for the journey. Stay tuned!